Sometimes we need to be real to help others.
I had a food reaction this week, one that gave me a significant headache, aching muscles and fatigue that I hadn't had for a while.
I will also preframe this by saying that I had been pushing my body with the trip to Newcastle that was an emotional rollercoaster, a tiring trip and sleeping in the car, and long study days. So, my body was already stressed and running on adrenaline.
As is often the case, when we need to look at our 'stuff' our subconscious seems to know what to do to make it happen oh that much faster. This time, it was my taste buds asking for a coconut chicken curry. Now curry for me is a problem but I was tired, hungry and bored of eating all the 'safe' foods all the time. I wanted some comfort food that was different and warming. Mistake? Maybe. The 2nd night of the dish, is what pushed me over the edge. One night and I could have gotten through it, but not 2, one after the other, and certainly not while tired and stressed!!!!
The upside it made me stop and take stock. When we are in pain, our body needs to rest and allow the body to take over and redirect nutrients, and energy to minimise more damage. Besides, my brain couldn't think much more than the routine steps anyway.
The pain, while in the regular places - liver detox spot, made me get mad enough to look at it this time with different eyes. i wanted, no i needed to understand what it was really about. I needed to know what was hidden in this message that wanted to be shifted. I should reframe this question, but that one is a bit too personal. Let me say matters of the heart, and family was being really pushed and I wanted to understand what and why so I could help improve the outcomes.
This morning, I sat in my morning seat. A chair that is in a corner, next to a big window framed with green leaves. A cosy place that I can look into the home and be grateful. What came up was I needed to forgive myself for my unrealistic expectation as a child for my parents to give me a God Like love. It was unrealistic because humans are not God, and we ALL have issues and hang ups and fears, and limitations that keep us from being our God selves. I also really need to forgive them for being as wounded as they were, it wasn't their fault either. Their upbringing and ife experiences, the culture at the time didn't encourage self awareness, let alone healing.
Coming to the deep, unmet need as a child, and also knowing my past, it made a lot of sense. The pain eased, the head is starting to think again, Tapping has been done, and I am grateful to the teachers along the way that have opened the world to promoting self healing in ways that may not have been in history.
Thank you to each of you too, because I believe you are here because you want change in your lives, whether it is for your body only, or a combination of mind, spirit and body. We are all drawn to what and whom we need to help us at the time, even if we don't see what it is all about at the time.
Im trusting this message may help or give hope to others here, and as I said in the opening statement, by being open, it gives permission for others to be real as well.
Wishing each of us only the best, and smoothest of learning transitions as possible. xx
What is this leading to??
I challenge each of then, as I think I can safely say that those in this group don't acknowledge how great you are. Between been great Mum's, Grandma's, Dad and Gramps, working, or caring for others, how often do you really sit back and look at what you have gone through to date and really, I mean, really see the good, the lessons and the growth you have taken on through the valleys, plateaus and mountain peaks?
Don't underestimate the positive impact each of you have on each other, even if we don't all reach out or share. Group consciousness creates the space of support. Unconscious holding of the space. So please, in the chat lines of the closed Face book group, join us if haven't already done so, and share one thing that do acknowledge that have done. It could be that you got out of bed today and got dressed, or decided to get your hair cut at the dressers, or buy that new winter coat in readiness for the season. You have travelled across the country, or waters to make a difference in any which way. I think you have got the drift. What have you done that when you think about it is pretty impressive and special even if no body else thinks so?
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